How To Be Your Own Motivation

How To Be Your Own Motivation

I’ll address the elephant in the room; I haven’t blogged in a while. It’s not that I didn’t want to write, I have just been carrying a heavy load of stress on my back for a few months now.

I know many of you can relate. Stress and depression seriously forces you to slowly slip away from yourself and what you’re passionate about. You may notice a change in how you sleep, eat, behave, and even your appearance. You want to be in a untroubled place, but no matter how hard you try, you still seem to be stagnant in your being.

I know myself well enough to watch out for the things that I do when I am extremely stressed. Some of them are things I cannot control, such as losing my menstrual cycle. Some of them are things I can control, such as eating two pints of ice cream out of complete emotional turmoil. (Yes, it has happened before). All of this may sound sad, but it’s real. I know I’m not alone in this. Im not giving up, I’m just working through these challenges.

I wake up every day and question my purpose, my passion, and my morals. I know this is normal, and I know that my questioning is coming from a place of fear, uncertainty, and lack of confidence. Well, it’s time to knock that shit off. I’m sick of it. I want the best for myself. How am I going to find my motivation again? What steps can I take to feel whole again? I may need some buddies to help keep me accountable. Feel free to write down your own steps for how to better yourself. I like to do this every now and then when I’m feeling completely lost in my journey.

Steps to contentment:

-Start writing at least once a week.

-Get a planner and write each week out every Sunday evening.

-Clean/organize my house at least once a week.

-Read a chapter of a book daily.

-Focus on quality time with friends and family.

-Go for a walk after dinner.

-Get a big ass water bottle and always carry it with me so that I drink at least half my body weight in ounces per day.

-Get as prepared as possible for school in the fall.

That was kind of a lot more than I was expecting, but I think that was needed. It really puts it into perspective when you write it all down and realize what you are missing from your life.

Not to toot my own horn or anything, but I’m gonna make the rest of this year my b*tch. I know I can do this. I fall off my horse every now and then, but my dad always taught me to get back on and handle the horse. That’s exactly what I’m gonna do with life.

Thanks for reading, I hope this post serves you in some way. I hope it’s a great day for you.

– The Positive Peanut

Starting A New Life

Starting A New Life

I never really understood why, but I have so many people constantly reaching out to me, asking how I managed to move 2,000 miles away from everything and everyone I grew up around at such a young age. Then I started to realize that I’m almost too independent for my own good, and not every one has the ability to just get up and go. I figured I would dig into my thoughts on this subject to help others who are seeking the possibility to move and start a new journey. 

I get asked questions such as:

“Why did you want to move away?”

“What has been challenging? Rewarding?”

“Why do I stay?”

“What do I miss about my home town vs. where I live now?”

“What advice would you give someone who is wanting to move from their home town?”

Well, my friends, lets get into it.

First off, let me explain that I am from a small town in Oregon. I spent much of my time in Springfield/Eugene since many of my friends lived there, and my school was there as well. It wasn’t a glamorous city, but it was home. I knew it like the back of my hand, and everyone pretty much knew each other, or dated one another. 

This brings me to my reasoning of why I wanted to move away. Now, I do not have bitter feelings toward my home town, nor any one that lived there, I was jut simply tired of living the same 24 hours every single day. I was in a rut, and as much as I didn’t want to admit it, it caused me deliberate unhappiness. The weather was something that really effected me as well. It was cold, wet, and numbing; mentally and physically. Some people love it (Mom, if you’re reading this, I’m talking to you), but I definitely thrive in the sunshine. Throughout my childhood, my family and I would take trips to Arizona around the holidays every year. I fell in love with the city of Scottsdale, which is where my grandma’s vacation home resided. I remember telling myself at a young age, that I would live here someday. That someday ended up being a few weeks after I graduated high school. 

My moving experience was not all sunshine and rainbows. I faced many challenges that I didn’t consider until they started happening to me. I was so hyped on the idea of living on my own and having so much freedom, that I didn’t even think about how lonely I was. I thought I was doing all of the right things for myself, such as going to school, going to work, grocery shopping, working out, and just being an adult. Soon after doing all of this repeatedly for a few months, I realized that I was back in a rut of unhappiness. I wasn’t content with my performance in school, I didn’t like my job at the time, I was in a suffocating relationship, and the stress was causing me to eat my weight in peanut butter. I sat myself down, prioritized, and took action. I started working for Dutch Bros again, which was a huge source of happiness for me. I’ve met so many of my friends since working there, even my current boyfriend. I took a break from school, and am now in a healthy routine. The challenges will be endless, but I have peace in knowing that I made it through those hard times, and I’m better prepared for more.

Now, the most rewarding thing I have obtained from this big move, is my improvement in self awareness. I am more aware of my feelings, actions, and just all around sense of self. I know what I want, when I want it, and how to get it.  I really feel like I have grown into someone I never thought I could be. I have learned how to be more selfless, loving, patient, and kind. I have also created relationships that I couldn’t see myself having back in Oregon. Starting life over in a new city challenges you to get outside of your comfort zone. When you go from feelings so completely broken and lonely, you really get a grasp of how good it feels to connect with other human beings. 

I’ll be honest…Oregon summer’s are my weakness. Every time I go back to visit my family over the summer, I fall in love all over again. I want to stay so bad. Some of my best friends are there, so are my pets, and the ability to constantly be doing an outdoor activity.  Once I get my hands on a fishing pole, I suddenly have an incredible amount of patience. Once I get my hiking shoes on, I could adventure on all day and night. I miss those summer memories. I’ve never felt more content than when I am canoeing up river to my favorite island, sitting by a fire under the stars with my friends, or picking fresh blueberries with my mom. Unfortunately, Oregon summers only last about three months. That’s where the love fades and I have to come back to reality, and Arizona. I could easily move back, as I feel I am more accepting to rain now, but half of my heart is in Arizona. I stay because I am happy with the life I have created. Oregon will always be home, but there is only a small town with so little to offer. I’ve done all the growing that I could there. 

My advice to anyone who is craving the adventure that is being held hostage from them in their home town is to just freaking go. I didn’t think about it too much, I just knew why and where I wanted to go, and I went. I made it happen because it felt right in my heart. Yes, you leave behind so much, but you have a ton to learn and gain as well. Your friends will always be your friends, and your family will always be your family. They will understand if you want to leave and experience new things. You can be happy some where else, too. It will always be home. You can always return. Also, make sure you’re financially prepared. That would be shit if you moved, ran out of money within a few months, and had to move back home. Have a nice amount saved up, enough to last you three to four months so you can be well off until you get a job. Another piece of advice I can offer is to be very aware of your surroundings. Carry pepper spray, a knife, a gun, anything to protect yourself in case of emergency. It’s a dog eat dog world out there, and people are crazy. 

Lastly, take care of yourself. Be fearless, hard-working, care free, and good-natured. Good things will come to you. I hope this gave some of you the courage to take the next step in your life. Feel free to leave comments or questions below, or reach out in the contact category. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend! 


Listen to Your Body

Listen to Your Body

Rest and self-care are so important. When you take time to replenish your spirit, it allows you to serve others from the overflow. You cannot serve from an empty vessel. 

– Eleanor Brownn

I am guilty. I use to over work myself to the point of exhaustion and daily mental break downs. I thought I was successful because of my productivity, but I can see now that I was completely wrong. 

I was corrupting my mind, body, and spirit. I see productivity as a wonderful trait to have, however, one must know their limits. It is not worth the self harm that comes with ignoring your bodies natural responses to stress. You can be the hardest worker in the room, but if you are mentally drained, are you really winning? Are you genuinely happy with yourself and your performance? 

Now, I’m not saying that you should be lazy, unproductive, and selfish all the time if you’re feeling over-worked, but to find the balance between working hard and giving yourself a break to replenish your creativity and energy. 

Some people may disagree, but I think it’s totally okay to call out of work if you need a mental health day. It’s okay to say no to hanging out with friends if you’re tired, and it’s absolutely fine to spend some time with yourself. You are not weak for feeling this way, and you should not feel bad either. You are self aware. You are doing the right thing for yourself. 

Listening to your body is more than just realizing that you want a pint of ice cream instead of going to the gym. Maybe you’re listening to your aching muscles, pounding headache, or irritated stomach. You could also be listening to your emotional feelings, such as sadness, doubt, or worry. 

Your body is always sending you messages. Honestly, being aware of how your body reacts to pressure is extremely important and will help you figure out what you can do more or less of. For example, when I begin to feel stressed out for some reason, (working a lot, studying, relationships) I get MEGA headaches. I could go to sleep with a headache, and wake up with one too. It sticks with me until I do something to relieve my stresses. 

It’s so easy to “go relax, and do something that makes you happy”, but I feel like so many people just end up laying in bed and scrolling through their phone. Yes, that could be relaxing, but it’s definitely not mentally stimulating. 

I’ll share some ways that you can start tuning in to your body.

  1. Go for a walk.  Plug in your headphones, listen to some calming music, and actually look at your surroundings.
  2. Eat mindfully. Eat food that will nourish your body and energy levels, rather than make you feel like a slug. Are you physically hungry or are you hungry because you’re bored? It’s important to be aware of how your body distinguishes the two feelings.
  3. Trust your intuition. Sometimes trusting your heart over your brain is exactly what you didn’t think you needed.
  4. Ask yourself how you’re feeling.  By doing this, you can address your needs. Stop, breathe, listen, decide, and act. 
  5. Start a self care regime. Get a face mask and bath bomb from Target, play your favorite video game, meditate, do yoga, write, whatever relaxes or pleases YOU. 

I hope this post has helped you become more in-tune with your body & mind. I wish only the best for each of you who have read this. Happy Thursday!