I’ll address the elephant in the room; I haven’t blogged in a while. It’s not that I didn’t want to write, I have just been carrying a heavy load of stress on my back for a few months now.
I know many of you can relate. Stress and depression seriously forces you to slowly slip away from yourself and what you’re passionate about. You may notice a change in how you sleep, eat, behave, and even your appearance. You want to be in a untroubled place, but no matter how hard you try, you still seem to be stagnant in your being.
I know myself well enough to watch out for the things that I do when I am extremely stressed. Some of them are things I cannot control, such as losing my menstrual cycle. Some of them are things I can control, such as eating two pints of ice cream out of complete emotional turmoil. (Yes, it has happened before). All of this may sound sad, but it’s real. I know I’m not alone in this. Im not giving up, I’m just working through these challenges.
I wake up every day and question my purpose, my passion, and my morals. I know this is normal, and I know that my questioning is coming from a place of fear, uncertainty, and lack of confidence. Well, it’s time to knock that shit off. I’m sick of it. I want the best for myself. How am I going to find my motivation again? What steps can I take to feel whole again? I may need some buddies to help keep me accountable. Feel free to write down your own steps for how to better yourself. I like to do this every now and then when I’m feeling completely lost in my journey.
Steps to contentment:
-Start writing at least once a week.
-Get a planner and write each week out every Sunday evening.
-Clean/organize my house at least once a week.
-Read a chapter of a book daily.
-Focus on quality time with friends and family.
-Go for a walk after dinner.
-Get a big ass water bottle and always carry it with me so that I drink at least half my body weight in ounces per day.
-Get as prepared as possible for school in the fall.
That was kind of a lot more than I was expecting, but I think that was needed. It really puts it into perspective when you write it all down and realize what you are missing from your life.
Not to toot my own horn or anything, but I’m gonna make the rest of this year my b*tch. I know I can do this. I fall off my horse every now and then, but my dad always taught me to get back on and handle the horse. That’s exactly what I’m gonna do with life.
Thanks for reading, I hope this post serves you in some way. I hope it’s a great day for you.
– The Positive Peanut